The 6th Anniversary of 9/11, my feelings by Leigh
Today is the solemn 6th anniversary of 9/11. It is a somber day, a day that honestly changed me as a person. It changed millions of people. This is just my story, my personal reflection. I do not mean to take anything away from those that actually lived through it all-but didn't we all do that? We all experienced it. It isn't often that a simple "man" lives through a day when it suddenly changes the course of history and the world "he" lives in. It is a day I will never forget as long as I shall live. I recall the innocence of that morning preparing my youngest for kindergarten. The biggest issue in my day was what kind of cereal would he want and to turn on Sesame Street so he could watch "Elmo's World". Then a neighbor came to my door and told me to put on my TV. I asked my child to allow me to turn Elmo so I could see why my neighbor was so insistent. It was then that I saw the plane crash into the tower, minutes later another. This day all innocence was lost.
The remainder of the day is largely a blur. I recall being physically sick ,crying most of the day. My mother came over to sit with me, I didn't want to be alone. I called my husband and begged him to come home from work to just hold me. I felt guilt, because so many would not have those seemingly indescriptive moments again. As an proud American citizen, I have never had the feelings that I experienced that day. I felt violated, scared, sad, angry, unsafe, threatened. For the first time that I recall in my life I had experienced the ugliness that is prejudice and hate towards me as an American because of my beliefs. It was a sickening and disgusting feeling. It is a feeling that reoccurs every time I see a rerun of the twin tower images sinking & melting into the ground. To this day it still brings me to tears every time I see those images. The emotions are still so raw and intensely painful.
That day taught me allot...about what is important. About freedom-how I didn't realize that I took it for granted. For the sacrifice of our forefathers. For helping your fellow man. I know that personally I began to reexamine the priorities in my life. I sat down and wrote letters to close friends and family members, telling them my feelings and how blessed I am to have them in my life. There were lessons learned that day through the lives lost and the tears shed. I didn't know a soul that perished on that day personally, but I grieved for each of them. My deepest condolences to the many people who lost their lives and who lost a loved one on that tragic day. I grieve for all of those lost as though they were my own family, friends and coworkers. For the ash the permeated the air on that day blanketed the nation. We will all forever be affected by that day. While most of us were not there physically- we were there, through our TV and computer screens, living through it.
That day still haunts me and perhaps it always will. I think most Americans were profoundly affected by that day six years ago. But I also know this, that Americans are quite resilient and continue to work their way back from this tragedy. We all have been able to witness the strength of New York City, and its economic and spiritual recovery. There is immense pride in the city as well as this great nation. Sometimes through tragedy comes strength. I think that is what happened six years ago. We realized our devotion to our country, it awakened a truth and perspective that we sometimes overlook....freedom. Today, I will fly old glory from my rooftop with pride that we still stand strong in the face of terrorism and adversity. Terrorism is meant to cause fear so that control can be gained. It is hard, but we must go on and not show fear. We are not but one country-we are millions of individuals of many creeds, color, ethnicity and religion and we together make up this great land that we love.
At the dedication of the Gettysburg Memorial, barely four months after the last soldier staggered from another Pennsylvania field, Abe Lincoln said, “We cannot dedicate. We cannot consecrate. We cannot hallow this ground. The brave men living and dead who struggled here have consecrated far above our poor power to add or detract.”
May those that lost their lives rest in peace and may peace be found by those who continue on. My sincere thanks to those serving in our military, it is the most honorable thing you can do as an American. My sincere gratitude to God for allowing me the privilege to be born into this great nation. May God Bless the USA!
The remainder of the day is largely a blur. I recall being physically sick ,crying most of the day. My mother came over to sit with me, I didn't want to be alone. I called my husband and begged him to come home from work to just hold me. I felt guilt, because so many would not have those seemingly indescriptive moments again. As an proud American citizen, I have never had the feelings that I experienced that day. I felt violated, scared, sad, angry, unsafe, threatened. For the first time that I recall in my life I had experienced the ugliness that is prejudice and hate towards me as an American because of my beliefs. It was a sickening and disgusting feeling. It is a feeling that reoccurs every time I see a rerun of the twin tower images sinking & melting into the ground. To this day it still brings me to tears every time I see those images. The emotions are still so raw and intensely painful.
That day taught me allot...about what is important. About freedom-how I didn't realize that I took it for granted. For the sacrifice of our forefathers. For helping your fellow man. I know that personally I began to reexamine the priorities in my life. I sat down and wrote letters to close friends and family members, telling them my feelings and how blessed I am to have them in my life. There were lessons learned that day through the lives lost and the tears shed. I didn't know a soul that perished on that day personally, but I grieved for each of them. My deepest condolences to the many people who lost their lives and who lost a loved one on that tragic day. I grieve for all of those lost as though they were my own family, friends and coworkers. For the ash the permeated the air on that day blanketed the nation. We will all forever be affected by that day. While most of us were not there physically- we were there, through our TV and computer screens, living through it.
That day still haunts me and perhaps it always will. I think most Americans were profoundly affected by that day six years ago. But I also know this, that Americans are quite resilient and continue to work their way back from this tragedy. We all have been able to witness the strength of New York City, and its economic and spiritual recovery. There is immense pride in the city as well as this great nation. Sometimes through tragedy comes strength. I think that is what happened six years ago. We realized our devotion to our country, it awakened a truth and perspective that we sometimes overlook....freedom. Today, I will fly old glory from my rooftop with pride that we still stand strong in the face of terrorism and adversity. Terrorism is meant to cause fear so that control can be gained. It is hard, but we must go on and not show fear. We are not but one country-we are millions of individuals of many creeds, color, ethnicity and religion and we together make up this great land that we love.
At the dedication of the Gettysburg Memorial, barely four months after the last soldier staggered from another Pennsylvania field, Abe Lincoln said, “We cannot dedicate. We cannot consecrate. We cannot hallow this ground. The brave men living and dead who struggled here have consecrated far above our poor power to add or detract.”
May those that lost their lives rest in peace and may peace be found by those who continue on. My sincere thanks to those serving in our military, it is the most honorable thing you can do as an American. My sincere gratitude to God for allowing me the privilege to be born into this great nation. May God Bless the USA!
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One year later.... Amen.
And the word that flew off the screen at me was "violated". I had never put that word with the attack but it is so TRUE. That is a good description of what evil can do... it violates us.
My day was SO similar to yours, right down to calling my husband, who was on the road, to get him to come home.
For SO long after the attack, I kept waiting for the "what next?" I felt like SURELY there was more to come. But that was it for that round. That was the best that they had. And while they broke our hearts for our neighbors in New York, they DID NOT BREAK OUR SPIRIT. We are STILL the most amazing, most BLESSED country on Earth.
Glod Bless America, and God bless you for this post.
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